Thank You

Today is 7th January 2010, Thursday....we are leaving for Sandakphu tomorrow for a 10 day trip. Four of us are going... Priyankar, Biaus, Shambo and of course me. Well, initially the party started off with 7 members... Gaurav, Anindya & Sayan decided not to go. Even I decided to hold back at one point of time, but because of two, maybe three persons that I'm going...and surprisingly each one had given me three different reasons to go...!!!!

One said that he won't go if I'm not going, the other said it has to do with the pride of BINGOS(that's the name of our group!!) and the last person said that I should go because I won't be able to travel back time to avail this trip again...so that's it...I had to surrender...!!!!

Frankly speaking the excitement is still not there, I do not know why.

Well, I guess I know why...

Firstly, I'm a bit worried about my Community Medicine & ENT papers...I may flunck!!

Secondly,oops! please forgive me...I can't disclose...!!

Oh! I forgot to say...Anindya is going with Amit , Shubhro & others to a trip to the Sunderbans for a day...he always lives up to his reputation...butt-hole...

As to why I'm writing this blog after so many days...its because the day was quite interesting...to the point that it forced me to write & I'm enjoying it...I know I might sound like contradicting myself...not exactly.

Before I write further let me tell you that I get "free advice" from a person who gave me the 3rd reason as to why I should go to Sandakphu.

As expected that person illuminated me with the thought of "social service". So I started my search & no better way than to kick off the search with "The Red Cross" & my search ended there only because I was amazed to see the kind of work they do. It was so satisfying to see that there are people left who give a damn about others. I'm not sure how long I will be able to keep this "aggarbatti" in me burning but I'm sure the fire of a prejudice called "social service" has been ignited...thanks a zillion,my friend....god bless you..

loneliness....

Here i stand, stretching my hand out searching for you

I could see all around me everything but you

I see and see and see but i cannot believe

Being surrounded by a stale sky

Forcing me in pseudo-psychedelia

I wake up to question you....why?

Why have you plunged me into this darkness...into this madness

Am i no better than this....

Striving hard to stretch my limit and break away

When i know that there is no way...

Rotting in this dungeon, i seek to fly

I seek to fly with you,many light years away from this hell

I hate you...for you have snatched yourself from me

Yes,i do panic in your loss...being so alone

But i still love you....darker than the darkness of this cell

Brighter than the light of your presence..

Because you have given me the conscience to hate you

With the psychosis inscribed in my every cell....

insomniated

for d records....

appetiser...after walking on dis ever so hungry land i have ceased 2 realise long back dat i'm hungry too...and i need to feed...for the time being i'm the first priority...

insomniated....no wonder y i'm blogging...